Yesterday my son received his black belt in Tae Kwon Do. He's worked so hard over the last two years. It was so exciting to see him test and then receive it from the Grandmaster.

We went to dinner to celebrate and then out for ice cream. What a great day.

My sister found out that her oldest dog has congestive heart failure. UGH. I hate it when animals are sick. I don't know which is better, the way my dog had to die or the diagnosis of hers. The hardest part for me, other than losing her, was not saying goodbye. I wish I would have known that she was going to die before I left for my mom's house. She too had a diagnosis two years ago and we treated her. Since then I knew life with her was precious and we spent those two years well. Still I wish I had more time and time to say goodbye.

I keep thinking about baby "B". Still not sure if I should call the social worker on Monday to ask her advice. Or should I just wait and see what happens.

The kids got their teeth cleaned today. No cavities for anyone!

Then we ran a ton of errands.

I had to work. It went by quickly .

Now I am going to watch Drop Dead Diva on Netflix.

Tonight was the busiest night I have worked so far. Can't say it was the most fun, but time did fly.

Didn't get a chance to call the social worker. Thought I might wait and see if we are approved by next week. I sure hope so. I hate waiting. I hope it is over soon and the answer to what I should do about Baby "B" is clearer.

Tomorrow all three boys go to the dentist for cleanings.

So while I wait to find out if we are approved for our homestudy, I can't help but think the child that may be waiting for us is doing just that....waiting for us and growing and we are missing time with her. She will turn two next month and I just don't want to miss another birthday of hers. Yet at the same time, she is not ours. All I can do right now is pray that she is being taken care of and she is getting the care she needs to take care of her medical issues.

Today my oldest is not feeling well. We stayed home all day. My second son went to dance, but other than that we are hanging low. I cleaned the house a little since my mom is coming down soon. Can't wait to see her.

Today I called to inquire again about the baby. They found her in the system and said that she is available for adoption. We have a few major hurdles in the way now. The first is that she turns two next month and we are only approved for children 0-2 years. Second of all, our home study is not yet approved and they need that as soon as possible. Third, the baby is in a different county then we are in and it might be harder for us to be approved for her. The fact that she is on this website means that everyone in her county has either said no to her or they weren't a match for her. It's hard enough for me to think of her being in a foster home let alone never being adopted.
We haven't even head her presentation yet so maybe we are not a match for her either. I am just not sure which route to take. Should I call my social worker and ask her if she is almost done with our home study because I am interested in a child in another county and we need to hurry because she is turning two next month or do I just sit back and pray and wait and whatever happens, happens. Not sure what to do.

Today we went swimming and the little one went to dance. My oldest had tae kwon do and will be testing for his black belt this weekend. Should be exciting.

Today we went swimming with friends. The little one is getting really good at swimming. Then we had dance and dinner. So glad they are liking the dances they picked.

I was searching the fostering photo listings and came across a little girl back in February or so that I thought I may be interested in adopting. I remember mentioning it to a few people and everyone just told me to be patient and wait. That I would get a baby. One person even said that someone else would adopt her, that I shouldn't be the one to take on all of her issues. She was around 1 year at the time. Well I saw her again in a different photo listing with a different picture and a new name. Before they just referred to her by initials. I've been checking in on her picture since May and now it is July and I feel like I just can't sit back any longer and wait for her to be adopted by someone else. Maybe there is someone else out there. But anyhow I made a call today to the number listed and was told that they couldn't find her information. She said that she would give me more info. about her but then couldn't find it. I don't understand how this happens, but I guess it does. Maybe she was adopted. That would be great. She was supposed to call be back at the end of today to let me know what she found out but she didn't. So I guess I will wait till tomorrow afternoon and call again. I don't know what to pray for. I guess the most important thing is that the child is safe and is hopefully either still waiting or adopted.

Today my husband gets to meet his new niece. Can't wait. The boys are excited to see her again. Right now they are seeing the new Harry Potter movie. Hope it is not too scary, but my oldest finished the last book last week. Hope they have fun!